This blog use to be my outlet. My voice to the outside world. I had moments where I felt closed off and needed to be heard by anyone someone.
I woke up this morning and realized I don’t have much need for an outlet these days. My life has become too busy. I barely have time to think. Which may or may not be a good thing. I feel less creative but also less full of angst.
I had serious insecurities when it came to my relationship with my husband. I would use this blog to poke fun at myself. Air out some of my dirty laundry. The other day some chick sent my husband some inappropriate message on Facebook. Normally this would send me in a tizzy. But this time I found it amusing. Hell I find him attractive, why wouldn’t other women?
And then it dawned on me for the first time in my life I feel safe and loved. Not at all complacent.
Now motherhood is still daunting and I’m almost 99% sure will never get easier. I realize now that I won’t always get it right. Sometimes seriously wrong. But that is the way life goes. I could use some advice on how you keep the insanity at bay. I don’t drink or use drugs so I’m thinking I need maybe yoga or a knitting class. Earplugs. Something.
Pregnancy is kicking my butt. The injections suck. I’m exhausted. But heck I don’t even want to hear myself complain. I will not inflict such tortures on you.
So if you noticed my sudden lack of blogging, I’m still here. Just busy in the really real world. Maybe I’ll learn to cook so we can have something to chat about. For right now I’m happy and happy Sam isn’t much for writing. But she sure does love pictures………





























